Welcome to the Govind Dham!
The individual goes up and up in the cosmos by practicing meditation, hymnody and chanting but when the position downgrades he falls back to the earth.
Did you ever realise how many years of the life you have lived without meditation, chanting and hymnody rest too you are wasting. Utilize rest of your life atleast.
Unless the blessings of the Guru spiritual upliftment is impossible.